August 30th 2001

Okay, so I have a question. If you're going to knock on the bathroom door to see if anyone's in there, what's the point of doing that if you're just going to walk right in anyway? I'm sure my suitemate will forever be horrified when she thinks of me squatting there on the toilet. Well, she deserved it for not waiting for me to say "Hey! I'm taking a shit here!"

Speaking of suitemates, they're loud. And one of them coughs alot. I don't know.

I added a page with just poems here for everyone's amusement, and so Kat's mom could read them. Right now, these are poems you've already seen if you're a regular MyMichele reader, but there will be new ones up soon.

Speaking of regular readers, I would suck if I didn't give props to Joleen, who read my WHOLE diary today. I think she summed me up pretty well, which is interesting. I guess I give a more realistic picture of myself here. I mean, if I wanted to show you something I wasn't, I'd make myself look like I was an ambitious go getter who is making every effort to lose weight and make friends. But I'm not, and that's good, because your mom.

I actually studied some Abnormal Psych tonight, which is rare for me. I usually wait about 2 days before the test to read 4 chapters in the book, but since that doesn't seem to work out for me very much, I'm changing my bad habits! Yayyy!

Thanks to astralfrog who is working on my layout. I'm sure it's gonna kick ass, babeh.

Also a shout out to my brother who is currently in Asia. He's not reading this or anything, but maybe if we shout really loud, he'll hear us.

We had a mandatory dorm meeting tonight. I think I got stuck with possibly the geekiest male I've ever met, and I've met some geeky males. How did he become an RA of an all-girl wing? Hmmm, maybe he isn't as geeky as I thought.

Tonight I downloaded "Does he love you" by Reba McEntire. That's a good song.

Damn, I am one thirsty bitch.

Anyway, good night.

P.S. Latest google hits:

"Fat suit"

"Axl Rose and Stephanie Seymour"

"Diaryland+went down on him"

August 30th 2001

Ode to Ali-Kat

Friendships are hard to maintain sometimes. Sometimes, you'll have a few years of gaps when you wonder how that person could have possibly gone on to other things, without you. Perhaps you feel a little bitter, perhaps you even feel a little hate. But.. what you wouldn't give to have that person back in your life.

I think it's important that people who came to your 13th birthday party came to your 23rd birthday party. I think it's important that person who introduced you to your first boyfriend,even though he dumped you the day before Valentines Day, asked you back out the next day, and then dumped you again a week later at the skating rink, still be in your life almost a decade later. I think it's important that you keep people around that know where you came from and can appreciate where you are right now.

Yes, we didn't have the most healthy relationship as teenagers. Always competing, always comparing, always trying to get more than what we had. But that's what friendship is. Going through the ugliest times of life and then showing up again.

Friendships are hard. But as time goes by, you realize how important a person can be to your life, and to your very existence. You realize how a person can shape the way you are today, and you realize that even as time goes by and your grip on your future is a little less stable without the person in your life who helped make it stable in the first place.

Friendship is a good thing, and I just don't ever want to lose sight of that, even when times are hard and I just want to throw it all away.