July 31st 2001

I really have absolutly nothing to say today. I am a snob, because I have given up looking for a job and I'm just waiting for my dad to put more money in my account. I suck, and I'm sorry. Maybe this is why I have about 2 dollars for the next 2 days. That's okay. I'll just have some peanut butter M&Ms or something.

It's really way too hot to do anything of substance today. It's 94 degrees, and it's just going to get hotter, and there's no reason to live in Texas during the summer, so let's all move to Alaska.

If you know what's good for you, you'll all go visit My good friend , otherwise known as pervert girl.

Here is a poem for all of you.

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Who Needs Mystery

by MyMichele

Silent gazes that mean so much

a look, a kiss, a soft velvet touch

the air of mystery fades so soon

but who needs mystery when you have the moon?

Fingers clasped together, a moment shared with tears

as time goes by, you learn to face your fears

years go by, but love burns bright

a shapeless form only seen in the dark light

a song is played

a promise is made

now is forever

now, and never.

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Ahh, the joys of a long term relationship.

My boyfriend and I will be doing our tradition of going to the pizza place where we had our first day every two months on our anniversary. It will be 3 years and 10 months on Friday. That means it will be 4 years in October. Woo, look at me, I'm smart. That's a really long time. My longest relationship before that was 8 months. 8 long, tedious months. I didn't want to meet anyone during my senior year, I wanted to have fun and then go away for college and meet some nice rich guy there. But instead I'm 45 minutes from Dallas instead of in another state, and I've been with him for almost 4 years. I do sometimes wonder what would have happened if I went to Santa Fe, where I was accepted at a nice college, but it probably would have sucked. I don't do well when I'm taken out of my element. At least thats what I tell myself.

BUH! If I get off on this subject, I'll be torturing myself all day. I'm glad I chose to stay here with him, because I love him. He's taken me to many different places, showed me many different things, and has taught me so much. We do things for a reason, and I'm glad I stayed. So there.

(sticking my tongue out, can you see it?)

and such.

I still haven't weighed myself yet. I did, however, manage to clean out my car. That may seem like a little thing, but it's been dirty for months. It's still sticky because about a year ago, a Dr. Pepper exploded in the back. But umm.. heh. I haven't gotten the windex out yet.

How the hell did I get so damn lazy? That's a good question.

"Between love and madness lies...

Obsession..."

July 31st 2001

Second entry for the day, whoooha!

So, I have a job. Kinda. It lasts less than an hour per day, and it pays like 5 dollars an hour, but hey, it's a job, doing research! How cool is that? Woooo, go me.

Tonight I went to Barnes and Noble. I enjoyed myself thourougly. I finished the book "Shadow of the Dolls," which was apparently based on an outline Jaqueline Susann wrote before she died, for "Valley of the Dolls." I really enjoyed Valley of the Dolls, and I am not ashamed! Shadow of the Dolls was just really bad. It's not what I would have imagined for any of them at all, but I'm not the writer of the book, so whatever.

I know I should be reading something more constructive, but hark, I'm reading trashy novels such as that.

Food Talk!

I've had different food obsessions in my life to get me where I am today. It used to be McDonalds. Quarter Pounders with cheese, maybe 2 or 3 times a week. Then, it was pizza. Pizza all the time, wherever I can find it. This was pretty recent, but I have apparently grown out of this phase. I never crave pizza anymore. I'll eat it if it's there, but I don't seek it out.

Other food obsessions I have learned to outgrow: Taco Beuno. I had that a few months ago and I was like, yuck. Whataburger, although I've kinda picked that one up again. Recess Peanut Butter Cups and everything else associated with Recess, but I haven't had any of that for like, 2 years. So what is my downfall right now?

For those of you who are regulars to my diary, and I don't think there's many of you, you'll know I'm fighting a war against breakfast fast food.

-Steak, egg, and cheese bagel

-breakfast on a bun

-the ultimate breakfast sandwich (the ultimate heart attack sandwich)

I like these things. But I will no longer eat them, because I just now realized that I have more power than they do. They are just eggs and cheese, sometimes bacon, sometimes steak. They don't have minds. They don't have arms to pull me. I am not a victim!

Thank you.

I am in talk radio heaven. They have brought Loveline back to Dallas! You just don't understand how happy this makes me. I finally have something to listen to again when I make the long trek from my dorm to my boyfriend's house. That excites me like you wouldn't believe.

I am quite happy today. My mom, such a caring, nice, happy, wonderful person, made me some beef fajitas tonight. It was nice when she lived 45 minutes away because I'd have a place to stay in Dallas, but now it's even nicer that she lives 10 minutes away so she can cook me dinner when I have 75 cents to my name.

I wish quotedwould update. Not that I think I'll be on there, I'm just tired of looking at the same page. Buh! Buh buh buh!

Now that I have enriched your brain, I will feed it poetry!

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Angel of Pain, by MyMichele ca 1997

You are my angel of pain

my demon of lust

I need you now

before I turn to dust

you are the keeper of my heart

the taker of my soul

I need you now

so I can be whole

you are a liar,

you are a prick,

I need you now

before I cut off your (censored for stupidity)

You have her

but I don't care

I need you now

it's just not fair.

You are my water

you are my fire

I need you now

my flame of desire

You are my moon

I am your sun

I need you now

We could have fun

You are so gorgoues

you are so fine

I need you now,

you will be mine!

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Good times.

Have a good day, diaryland, cuz I sure am.

July 31st 2001

Special Entries and some surveys:

A lyrics survey

Top 14 albums on my all time list

Blowout entries before long trips: Reno and Florida

The story of how me and my boyfriend met, and the story of my Psycho Ex.

A little birthday reflection

One of my favorite surveys

A silly survey

Random Factoids Part One and Part Two!

A few more Random Facts

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