blarghs

You know what I want? I want to wake up tomorrow and not give a shit about CSI, record all the episodes during the year and watch them all when the season's over. 'Cause then I'd know how the crap they write Jorja off and if the GSR stays intact. I would dig that.

But it's not going to happen that way because I'm too much of a retarded fangirl. I've written 2 one-shots this week and when I go home tonight (I'm at work now, which you wouldn't know by the amount of work I've done today, unfortunately), I'll be working on my multi-chapter AU fic. And while I write it, I'm sure I'll be refreshing YTDAW 1,000 times just so I don't miss out on ANY IMPORTANT NEWS!!! that happens on a Sunday night.

Seriously, I've got to stop obsessing at work. I have a job, I have to do it, we're soooo goddamned busy all the time and I'm not helping as much as I could be. Really, nobody is because I think we're all overwhelmed since the Great Firings of 2007. I really need to do my part, and obsessing over something I obviously have no control over is not helping ANYONE, especially me, and especially my sanity as a whole.

So, yeah. I just needed to rant a little about my weirdness lately. It's time to chill, let nature take it's course and do the things I need to be doing, which has nothing to do with the internets and/or CSI. It's called a hobby for a reason, and I'm not really good about keeping that in mind.

The good thing is that I've been writing A LOT this year, more than I have in a very long time. The bad thing is, it's not my fucking characters. The worst part is that Nanowrimo is coming up in a few weeks and I have NO IDEA what I'm going to write. I'm all, "Well, maybe I'll write about this girl with a tragic past who meets this older, scientist-y kind of guy, and they run circles around each other for years and then they finally get together and then they get engaged and a bee stings her!" Um, no. Can't do that. I'm finding it to be quite frustrating that I seem to not be able to think of original ideas anymore. Argghh.

Anyways. Must...work...now!

I need some vitamins or something.

I find myself looking up things a lot lately, things I should know. First let's start with how I STILL am confusing "then" and "than", and I've never done that in the past. In the past couple of days, I've had to look up "come full circle," "in the off chance," and just a few minutes ago, "nameplate." (That is the thing that sits on Grissom's desk that says "Gil Grissom, supervisor," isn't it?) I don't know what that's all about. Vitamins are supposed to help with these things, right? Because I don't really dig that feeling of losing my mind and such.

You know what I should have done tonight? Oh, well, pick from 1,000 different things, but mainly:
a. At least write SOME of the next chapter of my fic
b. Wash the dishes, clean my apartment
c. Clean out my car
d. Not order pizza
e. Work out

Did I do those things? No. Actually, I paid $10 to LJ so I could have more icons, then I searched for an hour for pretty icons, then I started on my fic until I realized I didn't know what a "nameplate" was, I watched Bionic Woman, I watched THE SCENE on you tube, and...that's about it.

Also, I really think I love LJ. Not that anyone reads this with any frequency, but I still think I like it better than Diaryland, if only because everyone on LJ is as batshit crazy as I am.

Anyway.