December 6th 2001

It is quite possible that I have made a big mistake here.

I have let yall in, I have shown you what a prick my boyfriend can be, I made you all feel sorry for me, feel bad for me, but that may have been a mistake. A mistake that I regret.

We just talked for two hours on AIM. I don't know. I just didn't want to let it go like this. I didn't want to remember him as the prick that he can be. I have more faith in us than that.

I know. I make myself sound weak. And maybe I am. But I just don't want to give up that easily.

I deleted some stuff.. some of it you can see at my other diary.

I probably lost a lot of respect here. But that's okay. I just have to do what I need to do.

Sorry.

December 6th 2001

Anyway.

I will be sooo very glad when this project is over. I've had to do the following for this freakin thing:

-A budget in Excel

-A business card

-Letterhead

-A power point presentation

-A resume

-4 pages of content, which includes two covers for a magazine, a contents page, and one page of a magazine

And yeah. It's taken forever.

But what comes with that is knowing that I accomplished something. Something that I can actually be proud of. And that makes me all giggly!

I have hired the lovely Quinn to make a new layout. Don't worry, you'll still be able to gaze upon Axl. But a different Axl. Perhaps a less content, less pensive, but equally attractive Axl.

Does anyone think I like Axl Rose?

I know I've been talking about my obsession with him more lately. I don't really know why. Obviously it has something to do with the concert, but I was like this even before I heard about the concert.

Here's some concert facts:

Tickets for the New Years Eve show cost $300. Airfare to Las Vegas, round trip, costs $600. Hotel - my dad said he can probably work on that for me. He has connections, you know. He must have powerful connections if he can get me a hotel in Vegas for New Years Eve, but that's besides the point.

A bus ride there would be a day and a half and cost around $200. That would be okay, except for the fact I get home from Florida on the 29th. It's all very frustrating.

A good thing would be, since I'm a member of the Guns N Roses web site thingie, I can order tickets tomorrow, a day before everyone else. Gee, I sure wish that information would be useful to me. Damn $300 tickets!

BoogaBooga, whose diary I have read every single page of, said I should try to win tickets on the radio. I would do that if they offered tickets in Texas for a Las Vegas show, which I'm not sure if they will. And what are the odds of winning tickets on the radio when I'm 12, only winning them again 10 years later?

I am such a dork.

Tomorrow, I will go Christmas shopping. I am very excited about this. I am a self admitted shop-a-holic. I will practically orgasm as I enter the great bastion that is the Galleria. Oooh, I get excited in the pants just thinking about it.

(burp) Woo.. a Quarter Pounder with Cheese burp.. tastes as gross as it sounds.

I had a flat tire again today. I took it to the Tire place and they fixed it for a meager $10. I had two nails in it. That can be a problem, I guess.

Thank you and have a nice day.