August 21st 2001

Okay, so, my new attitude: fuck anonymous. I was, and now I'm not, and if I really wanted it, I wouldn't have told my boyfriend that I had this name. Like I've said, there's no reason for him to stumble upon this diary. But I just enjoyed being unknown for a while, but I think that should end, because my name is not MyMichele. It's not even Michele. It doesn't even start with an M.

My name is Elizabeth. Okay? My friends usually end up calling me Liz. You can call me whatever you want. But that's my name. I know, it's shocking.

Anyway. Today I saw American Outlaws. It sucked some big hairy ass, truthfully. Ali Larter is a hot chick, oh yes she is, (hello whipped cream bikini in Varsity Blues), but her dialogue and pretty much everything else sucks in this movie. There was this really extremely good looking guy in it. His name is Gabriel Macht, and I've never seen him in anything else, but yummy yummy yummy. I would like some of that, yes I would. It was a really cheesy movie ("It's going to be a looong winter.") but I kinda like westerns. If I saw this movie 10 years ago, I would be lusting after all the guys in it by now, like I did when I saw Young Guns II. They even had a token indian like they did in Young Guns II. Wooeee.

Continuing on this hormonal rampage, I'd like everyone to realize the wonderfulness of Jillian Barberie. I kinda have a little obsession going on with her right now. I just know her from The Test, but I guess she's been around for a while. She's gorgoues, smart, funny, perverted. Mmmm. Here's a picture of her for all of you.

So this is my second year to stay in this particular dorm. My freshmen year, I lived in a dorm, then I lived in an apartment my sophomore year (by myself, it totally rocked, even though I had no friends to ever share it with), and now this dorm. I remember, my first week of college my freshmen year, attending a hall meeting and the chick asking if anyone was 21 years old, and thinking that the guy who raised his hand was a dork because he still lived in a dorm at 21. Well, I'm almost 22, and here I am in the same damn dorm I was in last year. But thats okay. It's cheap, it has air conditioning, and it helps me make friends.

This is indeed my senior year. I should be thinking "Wow, my last year, I'm so excited, I'm finally going to graduate!" But, sadly, no. I still have at least a year and a half left. My problem is I failed the math part of the entrance to college test, and I couldn't take upper level classes until I passed it, which was last semester. So I'm just now taking upper level classes. It's very sad.

I am on a Scrabble losing streak. I won one game today, but I lost about 10. That has never happened. I don't know why I'm losing so bad, and why I can't seem to get myself out of this streak. I think I'm going to give it up for a while. Well, I'm going to make myself once school starts, because it's too much of a distraction. But anyway.

I joined more rings today, bringing the total to 51 rings. I sorta have much shame for this, but not really. I mean, who's it hurting to have so many rings? I deleted a few today, and it was very painful. I know someday when I'm cleaning this place out or something, I'll delete all but 5 or something, but I don't want to make that decision anytime soon. And I finally learned how to make my rings look better. I know it's not rocket science, but it made me happy.

I was just listening to "Love Bites" by Def Leppard. That song always reminds me of Angel Boy (maybe someday I'll tell you his real name!)because once, when we were dating and I was talking to him on the phone, he was singing that song and when "I don't want to touch you too much baby, making love to you might drive me crazy" came on, he sang that part with emphasis, and then said, "Yeah!" He didn't say anything else about it, but it left my little 15 year old mind to fantasize about what the hell he meant. We never went very far sexually, so yeah. What the hell?

Other songs that have been dedicated to me by silly boys (please see this for further explanations/descriptions of such boys.)

1. Drop Out Boy - "I'd Die Without You" by PM Dawn. Did he die without me? No, he certainly did not, as the girl I tried to attack at the skating rink when I found out he was dumping me for her would tell you. (Hey, I was 13, you attack people at skating rinks at that age.)Also, he dedicated November Rain to me, which is actually a pretty depressing song and not something you dedicate when you've only been dating for 3 weeks.

For Bi Boy and Angel Boy, they didn't dedicate songs to me, but whenever I hear Pantera (Bi Boy wore the same Pantera shirt everytime I saw him)or White Zombie (Angel Boy was obsessed with them) I think of them.

(Yes, Pervert Girl, I know I'm bringing back memories for you as well :) )

Ponytail Boy dedicated "Wonderwall" by Oasis to me. This was perfect, because before I dated him, I had always wanted someone to dedicate that to me. We were just driving one day and he asked, "So, do you want this to be our song?" And I was like, sure. We later went to an Oasis concert together.

Psycho Boy dedicated "Number 1 Crush" by Garbage to me. Have you ever listened to that song? I should have known what that relationship was destined for after that.

BB has dedicated a few to me, and there's a million songs that I hear that remind me of our relationship, but the first one, after a month or two of dating, he dedicated to me was "It's Your Love" by Tim McGraw and Faith Hill. I just told him that day that I thought I was in love with him. I was asleep, and he called me at like 2 AM and told me to turn on my TV to the country music station, and told me that this song made him think of me. Now, everytime it's on, we get all googly.

AWWWW!

I think I should end this entry now, before you all kill me.

August 21st 2001

I will have no shame in doing 2 entries a day! And having a dumb survey for one of these entries! No, I will have no shame. Take comfort that when I start school on Monday, I will limit myself to doing 1 a day, so I can focus more on Sexual Psychology and Creative writing. And, this is a really long one, so you get extra Liz loving.

So, nobody wants to sign my guestbook anymore? Please sign it. I would feel better about myself and I will go on to cure world hunger and restore world peace.

Today, I will surpass 2000 hits since August 1st. I reset my sitemeter yesterday, but my darkcounter thingy has been running since the 1st. Anyway.

Just because I feel like it, before the survey I'm going to present to you a list of my favorite entries.

1. One of my first entries. This talks of Math Boy, my student teacher for summer school who I had a bit of a crush on.

2. Have you seen This one yet? It tells of my Guns N Roses obsession, and why I'm never meant to see really, truly, be satisfied with life in general.

3. This one just has lots of fun stuff, like celebrity crushes.

4.Stuff and some such is the Psycho Ex Story. It's fun times.

5.This is when I just got my gold membership and had good times pictures and stuff. This is like, my favorite. Or something.

6.More fun! This is my second favorite, next to #5. Not that I have favorites. Every entry is my favorite child. This one explains my Axl obsession, and it has many pretty pictures.

Wasn't that fun? 6 entries, all for your perusal and enjoyment. Have fun! (No, I'm not tooting my own horn or anything. "Hey, look at me, I have lots of good entries that everyone wants to read!")

My roommate from last semester moved back here yesterday. I haven't heard from her yet, but I covertly found her car by the dorm she's living in and I put a note on it to call me. I felt very sneaky.

Here's a lyric survey that seems to be all the rage these days. To challenge myself, I'm going to attempt to do this using only Guns N Roses lyrics! Woohoo!

Who are you?

"Well, well, well you just can't tell
Well, well, well my Michelle
Well, well, well you never can tell
Well, well, well my Michelle Everyone needs love
You know that it's true
Someday you'll find someone
That'll fall in love with you
But oh the time it takes
When you're all alone
Someday you'll find someone
That you can call your own
But till then ya better..."

-My Michele-

What do you look like?

"How could she look so fine
How could it be she might be mine
How could she be so cool
I've been taken for a fool"

-So Fine-

What's your secret?

"I know the things you wanted
They're not what you have
With all the people talkin'
It's drivin' you mad
If I was standin' by you
How would you feel
Knowing your love's decided
And all love is real"

-Don't Cry, Alternate Version-

What would you tell the one who loves you?

"Shed a tear 'cause I'm missin' you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt
You're in my heart now"

-Patience-

What do you want to do?

" I get up around seven
Get outta bed around nine
And I don't worry about nothin' no
Cause worryin's a waste of my...time
"

-Mr. Brownstone-

What are you afraid of?

"Welcome to the jungle
It gets worse here everyday
Ya learn ta live like an animal
In the jungle where we play
If you got a hunger for what you see
You'll take it eventually
You can have anything you want
But you better not take it from me
"

-Welcome to the Jungle-

Who do you love?

"There wasn't much
in this heart of mine
There was a little left
and babe you found it
It's funny how I never felt so high
It's a feelin' that I know
I know I'll never forget
Ooh it was the best thing
I can remember
Ooh and the love we shared
is lovin' that'll last forever"

-Think about You-

What do you want?

"There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday "

-Don't Cry-

Okay, I really think I'll end it there. It's challenging and fun and crap, but it takes too long, damnit. I would like to thank Smartie6903 because I took this from her page, and looking at her code helped me learn a little HTML. Thank you, Smartie.

Also, This lyrics page for all the lyrics.

As per Kat's yes, AKA Pervert Girl)request, here is a picture of her for your entertainment.

By the way, my scrabble streak is over. I'm doing so well people are quitting in the middle of the game because they fear my terrible wrath.

Also, to the guy in the blue car - what the hell is your problem? You almost ran into the guy with the truck when you were backing out, and then you almost ran into me after you let the truck pass! If I wasn't so worried about Karma these days I would have some serious road rage on your ass.

This entry took exactly 2 hours to do. I started at 6:11 and it is now 8:11. That is indeed good times.

UPDATE: Actually, it took 3 hours to do after deleting it three times due to not knowing HTML very well. It's now 9:21. I hope it's good now, because I don't want to work on it anymore. I hope you enjoy this motherfucking entry, damnit. Please sign my guestbook. Hey Andrew! There should be a way we can view our entries before we send them into the world!

August 24th 2001

Oh.My.God! I got my first google hit! I'm so very proud of my little diary. It wasn't anything interesting, just for "Jillian Barbie (Later-yes, spelled wrong, because I got tired of all the google hits, and such.)", which came up with this page. Aren't you proud?!

I don't have much time to write. BB and I are about to go bowling. I know, isn't it exciting? I haven't bowled in like 4 years, and he's in a bowling league. Hmm, I wonder who will win here.

But that's okay, because he and one of his friends challenged me to Scrabble today, and I kicked both their asses. No, I'm sorry, "Da" is not a word, but when used for a double word score, "Dozen" is very effective.

Earlier tonight we went to see Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back. It was really fucking hilarious. It won't have any relevance in 10 years, because people will see it for the first time and ask themselves and those around them, "What the fuck are they talking about?" But it was really good. And Ben Affleck is just really a good actor and quite good looking. His line "It's time like this when I wish I still had a lesbian girlfriend" cracked my shit up.

*GASP* You mean I got to see a movie with BB, got to play movie trivia at the Wild Turkey, AND got ORAL SEX?! It must be alternate universe day or something!

Oh, no, thats right. Tommorow is officially the start of football season (there's a high school scrimmage, oh boy) which means we (well, he) will be watching a whole lot of TV and dragging me to a whole bunch of games. Oh well, it was fun while it lasted.

I did go back and delete a little of yesterday's entry. I mean, if you wanted to know the length and frequency of my orgasms, you'd just ask me, right? You probably don't really care for me to just outright give you this information, right?

That's all I have for now. Thank you.